I had lost a baby.... my baby.
I am 40 and have struggled with infertility for around 20 years now, I have never been able to get pregnant at all. About a year ago we started to look why that was, I started looking at Fertility Clinics and what I had learned was my eggs were not viable, we always knew it was on my end because my husband was tested in our late 20's but I had never been tested before now. After finding all this out we started down the path of looking for donor eggs, we were really excited go
..it is still so painful...
My husband and I could not get pregnant due to his infertility. We did IVF and got pregnant with triplets. At about 3 months, the 3rd just stopped "existing". I don't know how else to put it. There just was no more heartbeat, and the doctor said that one would be 'reabsorbed'. I was on bedrest the entire pregnancy. I gave birth to twins 7 weeks early by emergency c-section. One daughter was born with a heart defect and had her first open heart surgery at 4 weeks. She came hom
There is so much silence around this topic...
As someone who suffers through recurrent pregnancy loss, two clotting disorders, PCOS, and thyroid problems - I have endured 7 miscarriages in the past 12 months. I also had an ectopic pregnancy back in 2012. This is an issue I've had to keep quiet about for years. My husband and I have been heartbroken more months than not while trying to make a baby. Even when we finally see that positive pregnancy test we have to think "will this one stick?". I wouldn't wish this upon anyo
I have a choice to lie, keep quiet, or tell the truth...
My husband and I could not get pregnant due to his infertility. We did IVF and got pregnant with triplets. At about 3 months, the 3rd just stopped "existing". I don't know how else to put it. There just was no more heartbeat, and the doctor said that one would be 'reabsorbed'. I was on bedrest the entire pregnancy. I gave birth to twins 7 weeks early by emergency c-section. One daughter was born with a heart defect and had her first open heart surgery at 4 weeks. She came hom
I hope talking about loss becomes the new "normal".
Hello, I've struggled with fertility for nearly 4 years...first having 2 miscarriages before being sent to a fertility specialist and then enduring treatments, another miscarriage, acupuncture, etc. before an unexpected pregnancy that ultimately ended in one of the most devastating ways---pprom. I had the joy of meeting my son who fought his hardest for 11 hours (enough time to fight to meet his mother and bring her so much joy during the most challenging time of her life). I
I'll never forget the children I never got to hold...
When I was fifteen I found out I had endometriosis. I was told I would never have children which to some fifteen year olds may have been a relief; but to me I was heartbroken. I had always wanted to have children. When I was 17 I found out I was pregnant; at the first ultrasound we found out there were two heartbeats. I carried my babies with both happiness and worry as they told me that I had a hole in my uterus and that they may have to terminate the pregnancy in order to k
I fear I will always feel as if our family is not quite complete...
I already shared an essay I wrote after my first 2 losses but wanted to share my whole story quickly here as well. Thank you for making this movie. I hope you reach your goal! Beth's Story My husband and I started trying for a baby right after we got married. I was 33 and felt like I better get started ASAP. It took several months but we got our positive and were so thrilled we told all of our family and close friends right away. It wasn’t a week later that I started bleeding
This painful dose we've been served is too much by itself...
My story is laid out on the pages of my blog,http://emptyarmsfullhearts.weebly.com/. I have one beautiful daughter, so recognize how fortunate I am, but also have endured 8 years of infertility, infertility treatments including multiple IVF cycles, and nine miscarriages. One successful IVF cycle resulted in a beautiful baby girl growing in me for 22 weeks, only to deliver her stillborn on December 31, 2014 due to incompetent cervix, a previously unknown factor on top of our m
I will never forget the tension in the room, when my doctor noticed "something was wrong".
I will never forget the tension in the room, when my doctor noticed "something was wrong". My husband and I were at our ultrasound appointment, to see what the sex of our child was going to be. It was June 28th, and we had invited my mom to come along with us; so she could see for the 1st time, what an ultrasound looked like..and to meet her newest grandchild via a picture on a screen. With us as well, was our 10 month old daughter. I remember watching my doctor's look of con
I yelled at God, then I prayed that it wasn't true.
I was told that I was infertile at age 19. The male doctor said a full hysterectomy was the only thing that would save my life. I looked him straight in the eye and said "is this the same advice you would give your childless, virgin daughter." Then I left without ever looking back. However, my PCOS diagnosis landed me back in the hospital on nearly an annual basis. Finally married and 27, with real insurance for the first time since childhood, a reproductive endocrinologist s
