I'm still mourning the loss of our other child, and this one is not a replacement.
After trying for 3 years, we were pregnant. (We have one biological son) We went in for our 8 week ultrasound and all the ultrasound tech could see was "debris". I'll never forget that term. This was on February 27. After switching doctors and two rounds of the pill to pass the "debris" I ended up having to have a D&C. This was on April 22nd. What surprised me throughout this, and now over 6 months after is how people do not know how to respond to this. They're uncomfortable
I Did A Lot of Crying Today
Today was our first public filming event, and I was honored to meet so many miscarriage, stillbirth and infant loss parents. We started the day at the Let's Not Be Still walk for awareness by the Star Legacy Foundation. It was a beautiful day and we couldn't have asked for better weather, but the truly remarkeable thing was all the families coming out for a common purpose- to remember their loved and lost babies. I am a Director. It's my job to sit behind the camera and direc
I never knew I could love someone so much that I never even got the chance to meet.
In December 2014, after six months of trying, we found out we were finally expecting our second child! The excitement for our then three-year-old and us was overwhelming, and everything felt as if it were falling into place. Over the next few months, everything seemed perfect! We opted to have the first trimester screening done, where everything looked great! On March 16, 2015 (my birthday), our doctor called to say that the Alpha Beta Protein test that was done at 15 weeks,
...my precious son, who lights up our life, has been our beacon of hope...
I learned of this documentary at a very crucial time for me this week, after learning on Monday that I had a missed miscarriage and would have to induce miscarriage to pass my third baby, and second lost baby. Pregnancy loss is such a widespread experience and yet, I get uncomfortable responses from some people as I have tried to share my story. I have family members who haven't even reached out to offer their condolences or support. Why? Why is this treated any differently t
I fight this fight until I have a healthy baby...
My first miscarriage I had back in Switzerland. After my Mom had 7 miscarriages and and one still birth I wasn't surprised about this miscarriage. Shortly after I got pregnant again, another loss. After the 3rd loss I moved to the US and the Doc here sent my to an RE. After multiple tests they found out that I was homozygos for MTHFR 667, the Doc's told not to worry about it and that this has nothing to do with my miscarriages. They just said that they can't find out what the
...they have no clue.
In the last 3years I have had 1 stillborn and 3 miscarriages. After the last miscarriage I was sent to a specialist. The only thing they could find is my vitamin D levels are low and that could be the reason but they have no clue. I have no live children. Sometimes it's really hard to be around people who do.
I was ashamed for a time, but then just mad, and then I became very open.
I thought the first miscarriage in my early twenties was just a fluke. I was young and scared at the news I was pregnant but started to imagine what it would be like to have a baby when things started going wrong. Fast forward several years, my life had changed dramatically, my boyfriend had become my husband. I had earned my BA, a teaching credential and even a MA. My career as a teacher was well on its way, everything was perfect so starting a family seemed like the next bi
...it does not define who I am...a strong woman.
Both of my miscarriages happened at about the same time week 8. I have felt unbelievably sadness as I am now 44 and don't have much time left. I feel people look at me differently because they don't know what to say. ... especially if the have a healthy Baby. I'm sick of hearing "It will happen if you relax and don't think about it" or "There was good reason it didn't make it" None of these things make me feel better. Both of my babies had names but no graves to visit. Mourni
It's hard to live with a big, black baby shaped hole in our lives.
We found out that we were expecting on 20th January 2014. I was in toilets at work with my mum when the test came up positive. I was so happy I cried. My husband cried tears of happiness when I called him to tell him too. We had our 1st scan on 15th Feb and saw our little ones heartbeat. I had experienced some spotting but after that scan was told not to worry unless it became heavy. Over the next few days it gradually started to get a little heavier. I called our local hospi
It really is a pain you can't understand unless you've experienced it.
I wanted to be a mommy since I was a little girl. When I saw the positive test I started shaking and crying I was so excited to be pregnant. I started noticing that I felt less pregnant around 8 weeks. My breasts weren't as sore, I wasn't feeling sick or bloated or tired. I had some spotting so my husband took me to the hospital where they did an ultrasound. They said the baby was measuring small and there was no heartbeat but it was still early. So they sent me for a follow
