

June Gloom- My Miscarriage In New York City
I don't really like when people tell me they are "trying" to get pregnant. All it really means is you're having sex. Unprotected sex. I often joke with my friends to let me know after they conceive to avoid the visuals. For years I was one of those "trying people". I then also realized it is a process. A very difficult one at that. I conceived and miscarried first in 2008. My doctor at the time chalked it up to statistics, common stats. Curious choice of words that did nothin
...No one talks about this or prepares you for it.
I recently lost my perfect baby at 36 weeks. It was a perfectly healthy pregnancy, then one morning I didn't feel my baby girl moving. We rushed to the hospital and there was no heartbeat. Our beautiful daughter entered the world silently the next morning due to a silent placental abruption. We were so shocked and heartbroken. How could this happen? Are we the only ones in the world that his happened to? We felt so alone. We had no one to talk to that had experienced this. No
...I So Wished This Wasn't Something I Had To Grieve Silently About
In the process of having my beautiful daughter, I have experienced 6 miscarriages. 2 before her and 4 afterwards. Each experience was different -- some left me sobbing on the floor, some happened with only a little numbness, Each equally heartbreaking in its own strange way. Some I talked about and some I grieved alone, telling no one. I can't honestly say which was better or which was ultimately easier. I can say that when I did talk about them, I was astonished at how many
We Felt So Alone
I recently lost my perfect baby at 36 weeks. It was a perfectly healthy pregnancy, then one morning I didn't feel my baby girl moving. We rushed to the hospital and there was no heartbeat. Our beautiful daughter entered the world silently the next morning due to a silent placental abruption. We were so shocked and heartbroken. How could this happen? Are we the only ones in the world that his happened to? We felt so alone. We had no one to talk to that had experienced this. No
I Had To Carry My Angel For Another Six Days Knowing She Was Already Gone
Aurora's story I had a feeling I was pregnant when I was 9 weeks along. I had a feeling I might be, but wasn't sure if it was pregnancy or menopause that was making me feel sick and miss my cycle. At 47 there is a less than 1% chance of conceiving without fertility treatments. I had taken 3 pregnancy tests. First was 2 lines second was one line. So I got a digital one thinking okay that will tell me for sure. It gave me ? As an answer. How to play with my head lol. So I went
I Remember the Silence of the Tech
After 2 years of marriage, my husband and I decided it was time to expand the family. We were young and healthy, and up to that point, lucky. After 6 months of trying, I talked to my OB. We ran some tests, couldn't find anything major. She sent me to an endocrinologist, he agreed- no reason I shouldn't be pregnant. After 18 months, we started working with a reproductive endocrinologist. More tests, loads of bloodwork, and after a few more months, we were ready for our first I
The Loss of Innocence Made Me Stronger
The lines of where my fairy tale story begin and where the tragedy of my life ends is a blurred line of memories like the sun setting into the ocean. Often one story leads into the other and all the innocence is now gone. I was born a fighter, a believer, strong willed, and a dreamer but over the years I have lost my innocence. The Innocense of A Little Girl When I was a little girl I was living in a hell called home with an abusive father. I lived like that until I was 15 an